You congratulations

I wouldn't have compromised as much
so much of myself for fear of having you hating me
i would've sung so loudly
it would've cracked myself!
i because self-conscious
or anything exuberant
i wouldn't have sold myself short
i wouldn't have kept my eyes
glued to the ground
if i had've known my invisibility
would not make a difference
i would've run around screaming proudly
at the top of my voice
i wouldn't have said it was in fact luck
i'm talking idealism here
i would not have been so self deprecating
i wouldn't have cowered
for fear of having my eyes scratched out!
i wouldn't have cut my comfort off
i wouldn't have feigned needlessness
i would not have discredited
every one of their compliments
it was your approval i wanted
your congratulations