Why do you make me bleed

I try and catch myself from crying but the tears are dead. i can cry on your command. i can scream making my lungs bleed. i can stare at a broken reflection seeing you laughing at me. i pretend so that i can kill you. pieces of my heart cut me like suicide. i crave her touch. i crave her kiss. i wish i fell in love and never wakened from it's slumber. i wish i fell in love