Where did december go?

I heard every word you said last night
when we talked about vicarious goodbyes
and i've shut you out of it all because i didn't want to care
and after all these tears had swelled in my eyes
i wonder how you stand to call me your friend
perhaps i need convincing so im listening
tell me where did december go?
where did december go?
i wont make up my mind why can't i make it clear?
i'll wait until i've closed my eyes
though i've dreamed that one at thousand times
if you were mine i'd make it snow outside like memories