When the fever broke

I wish I could be your last goodbye
I wish I was your man
But I'm not, not even close to not
Not even close to might have been
I guess I'll keep disappointing you
I guess I'll miss the mark again
I guess I'm sorry
I have this tombstone quality
I wish that you could see me here
I wish that you could feel me here

I don't want to be the only one to stay for me
Look what you've said and done for me
No one in the world has a voice that speaks to me
Hear what you've said and done to me

This morning when the fever broke
I closed my eyes and laughed
Thinking I can't go home again
I can't go home again I know I'm not what I used to be
I know I've rearranged my head
This is life, just keeps on chasing us around
Until it catches you, you're dead
They say I'm not right every god damn night
That's why I keep it to myself
That's why I'm sorry
I have this tombstone quality
I know you'll never see me here
I know you'll never feel me here

I don't want to be the only one to stay for me
Look what you've said and done for me
No one in the world has a voice that speaks to me
Hear what you've said and done to me

Tomorrow when the fever breaks
I'll close my eyes and laugh
I can't go home again
I can't go home again

I can't go, I can't go home
I can't go, I can't go home
I can't go, I can't go home
I can't go, I can't go home
I can't go, I can't go home
I can't go home