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Dear matthew
i like you a lot
i realize you're in a relationship with someone right now and i
respect that
i would like you to know that if you're ever single in the future
and want to come visit me in california i would be open to spending
time with you
and finding out how old you were when you wrote your first song
dear jonathan
i liked you too much
i used to be attracted to boys who would lie to me and think solely
about themselves
and you were plenty self-destructive for my taste at the time
i used to say the more tragic the better the truth is whenever i think
of the early 90's
you face comes up with a vengeance like it was yesterday
dear terrance
i love you muchly
you've been nothing but open hearted and emotionally available and
supportive
and
nurturing and consummately there for me i kept drawing you in and
pushing you
away
i remember how beautiful it was to fall asleep on your couch and cry
in front
of you for the first time
you were the best platform from which to jump beyond myself what was
wrong with
me
dear marcus
you rocked my world
you had a charismatic way about you with the women and
you got me seriously thinking about spirituality and you wouldn't let
me get
away with kicking me own ass
but i would never really feel relaxed and looked out for around you
though
and that stopped us from going any further than we did
and it's kinda too bad because we could've had much more fun
dear lou
we learned so much
i realize we won't be able to talk for some time and i understand that
as i do
you
the long distance thing was the hardest and we did as well as we could
we were together during a very tumultuous time in our lives
i will always have your back and be curious about you about your
career your
whereabouts