Tossing a knife

Hello again
Where have you been for so long?
With no answer...you're gone again
Somewhere in this world there is beauty
But where to find it?
Happiness lurks in the shadows
Beaten and bleeding by my loving hate
Such a fatal tragedy
I'm searching as the lightning flicks
And every wall I come to, you're on the other side
You were like a blade tossed between my hands
Rock, paper, scissors, you shoot
Me in the chest
I find myself hopeless on hands and knees
Crawling after you as you turn your face and once again run away
Goodbye again
Goodbye my sweet blade