To die in fall

Sustaining life is meaningless, complacent hearts collapse in stride
We cannot know, we cannot call out for help, out for a way in and
I forget just why I lay here, to rise and bleed and die in fall
Preserving fear, deserving fear, the satellite, the satellite collapses hard
Controls my friends
The weather man predicts the end and I forget just why I lay here emotionless
To rise and bleed and die in fall
And I need to push you so far away
Cause I want to do to you what I have always longed to do
Cause it's been so long since we spoke and I keep pushing away but you knew exactly
Who I wanted you to be, Lazurus born from a stain, lie down and take the truth is ugly
Such a waste of energy and such a waste of time your such a waste and
I forget just why I lay here motionless to rise and bleed and die in fall