To be or not to be

Keeping my eyes closed
i cant forget that face
but it's all gone
i stand alone
crashed upon my life
smashed upon a dream
oh well it's life
as good as it seemed
now i stand with only hope
Every day seems ever lasting
watch the clock, the times not passing
i should close my eyes and drift away
no i'll force against this uncontolable pain
The mornings turn into nights
days turn into weeks
dirt turns into roads
i crumble to dust
my life is getting no where
no meaning, no one to care
what would it be like if i were gone
try my best to disappear
Every day seems ever lasting
watch the clock, the times not passing
i should close my eyes and drift away
no i'll force against this uncontolable pain
Maybe this is just a nightmare
so i'll shake my self to death
murdering head ache
suicidal stomache pain
nothing lost and nothing has come to gain
so much for waking up