This charade

Within myself i fail to find
the capacity to care for another
i can't even care for myself
to me, you're just another lover
I never thought it'd come to this
though i warned you from the start
i told you you'd be more hurt than before
i knew i'd break your heart
I cannot continue as your keeper
i can pretend no longer
i cannot continue to be your weakness
when my purpose was to make you stronger
Now it's time to tell the truth
i never really loved you at all
if you made me promise to catch you
i'd only let you fall