This ain't no fuckin' love song

My crimson covered hands
clutch heart strings newly broken.
Moths breed in my entrails
hate washes through my fuc*** veins.
Friendship turns to disease,
afflicting the weak of mind and heart.
You are the growing cancer,
eating at my fondest memories.

Seven abandoned years thwart all affection.
Why do your whispered lies
push fingernails into my palms.

The knife slipped in.
Pushed by the most familiar hands.
I fell upon the comfort of your words.
A flash of light taught me a lesson in betrayal.
I fell upon the solace in your smile.
Seven wasted years.
Boiling in vomit.
I will erase you.
I will erase you from this heart.
From my memory I cut away.
You’re just a name to me.
A friend is now a ghost. I will never give again.
You have forsaken any faith I had in you.
All the love I had for you.

I am reborn. Baptized in flame.
Clean of your deceitful looming.
Friends are beneath me.
I can’t face this pain again.
I’ll die alone, but at least i’ll know who loves me.

I am a shadow of myself pent
up in walls of human shit.
Annihilating anything that bears your name.
I am a hollowed wooden shell
made strong by that which I abhor.
Committing only to creating your demise.

And so I pray for sleep
and to see anything but red.
All purpose has been drained from me.
A friendship ends in pain.
Morose claims my every word.
All trust has been carved out of me

Seven wasted years boiling in vomit.
I will erase you. I will erase you from this heart.
From my memory I cut away.
You’re just a name to me. A friend is now a ghost