The meaning of solitude

Punish my black heart for i have sinned.
nail my black heart for i have sinned
leave me alone in
this evening of despair
when nothing has the same meaning again
and this core of self-deception
fills the pits of solitude.
Punish my black heart
for i'll sin again
with the same, old illusions
as my monodimensional guiding light.
And when everything will regain perspective,
i will finally find a meaning
to this deep grey solitude of mine.
Punish my black heart
nail my black heart
melt me.