The lost boy (ft. louden)

They said he wasn’t cool cuz he didn’t wanna play the fool
Called him out his name cuz he got his head on straight
"Why you such a nerd ?
Why you thinking on the future ?
You could die any day in these streets
A Cop a could shoot ya !"
Cocka-doodle !
Waking up to terror on the bus
Bullies on the route
Tries to converse- they can’t comprehend what he’s talkin bout
His fists is out, they dissing now cuz they intimidated
When you shine bright- the people living inside the darkness hate it
He made it to class, rips all over his pants
& his reputation as a man no longer stands valid in this situation
All the school is talking crazy
Everybody laughs & ain’t nobody here to save him
So he drops out & now he’s hustling in these streets
& everybody knows he’s making money, yeah, he eats
& he’s active, he been scheming, searching for a meaning
But his new lifestyle introduced him to so many demons I just wanna get so high
So, so high
High so nobody can’t see me
Can’t see me

I just wanna get so high
So, so high
High & never come down
Never come down, no

I just wanna get so high
So, so high
High so nobody can’t see me
Can’t see me

I just wanna get so high
So, so high
High & never come down
Never comin down, no

Big homies talking bout the guap, talking bout the hoodrats
Full stack, full clip, strutting with the Hood pass
Watch him do that- flip it, make the brick freeze
Fuc*** older bitches- strip tease for the fix, please
His innocence is gone- nobody gon resurrect it
He’s infected
His business feeds the addiction, then he gets arrested
This obsession with desiring self-acceptance mixed with this deadly substance a death wish
& then it happened- he got hit
1 shot to the chest, 1 shot to the leg,
1 bullet he saw flying towards his face
& then he blacked out
POH- POW- POW
Woke up in the hospital
The doctor says, “Impossible,
That, “he ain’t gon ever walk again.”
& where his friends who had a gun- who didn’t bust- who pussied out
He watched em run, ugh, & left him covered in blood
No loyalty, no pride, nobody had his back
No retaliation- ain’t no enemies gettin clapped
& now he sees reality- cuz he can’t move his legs
Cuz he can feel where the bullet came & left through his head
Cuz mama has the proof- he’s slipping into darkness
El Niño Perdido- a killer turned target I just wanna get so high
So, so high
High so nobody can’t see me
Can’t see me

I just wanna get so high
So, so high
High & never come down
Never come down, no

I just wanna get so high
So, so high
High so nobody can’t see me
Can’t see me

I just wanna get so high
So, so high
High & never come down
Never comin down, no

After years, his prayers were answered
He’s walking with a cane, with the pain insane
Mama let him stay with her- he says he gon change
He gon be good, he gon stay out
Slaving day in, day out
Getting paid now
Sober, day by day now
He okay now
He sees the big homies in the streets begging peeps for something to eat
He remembers when he used to think they was the shit, they were G
He wanted to be like em
He saw em as a father figure
But now he’s bigger, don’t live life with fingers on triggers
Now he’s talking business
He sees em at the bus stop
The chills take over & don’t stop
Cuz all he can think about was when he was slanging, smoking crack rock in the trap spot
The homies try to call but all they talk about is drugs & alcohol
He stops picking up
They say he changing up
But he don’t really give a fuck
He don’t like misery as company no more
He’s living comfortably
He’s tryna get rich & love life- in real life- not thug life
He’s trying to make a million, not be a regular civilian
Promised himself he’s never looking back & he ain’t been back since then

I just wanna get so high
So, so high
High so nobody can’t see me
Can’t see me

I just wanna get so high
So, so high
High & never come down
Never come down, no

I just wanna get so high
So, so high
High so nobody can’t see me
Can’t see me

I just wanna get so high
So, so high
High & never come down
Never comin down, no.