The anatomy of desesperation

Desperately trying to find my way
And hopelessly grabbing for the words to say
And I can't see, I'm searching for the remedy
And I want to be the way I dreamt it to be
And it feels like you're a million miles away
Will I heal when you're so far from me

I'm desperately seeking
I'm dangerously hoping the walls will come down
'Cause I don't want to go home right now
I'm desperately seeking
I'm dangerously hoping the walls will come down
'Cause I don't want to go home right now

Choking me with these words I say
Apologies: there's not enough to say or express
And I confess that you're everything to me, to me
And I'll be what you want me to be
I can't see past the broken part of me I'm desperately seeking
I'm dangerously hoping the walls will come down
'Cause I don't want to go home right now
I'm desperately seeking
I'm dangerously hoping the walls will come down
'Cause I don't want to go home right now

Suffocate the things I hate with the remedy inside of me again
I suffocate the things I hate with your remedy inside of me again, again

I'm desperately seeking
I'm dangerously hoping the walls will come down
'Cause I don't want to go home right now
I'm desperately seeking
I'm dangerously hoping the walls will come down
'Cause I don't want to go home right now