The absentee

And its felt like lead, too
think to let anything else in?
it is too heavy to stand.
i won't push out, please, god
this tears me apart on the inside,
you quit and you suck and you are still the same..
as far as i can see i wish to breath,
i can't take this change,
i would rather stay here
with my hands gripping my throat.
what now?
you find yourself on the outside?
what about them?
what about her?
what about all of your responsibility?
i find this in blood, for some
easy to walk away,
i find that i can never break, this hurts,
it tears me apart on the inside
i've quit, we are done,
it seems that now you're the absentee
i still feel so much for you