Tears of pain

The pool of tears is 3/4 way full
the other 1/4 is blood from my self destructive cuts
i've wanted to kill my self,
take a gun to my head but i don't have the guts
so why doesnt my angel just pick me up and take me away?
north of here i dont;t wanna stay
don't wanna stay
tell me why
>>why why why<<
why is it like this
I stand at the top over looking it all
a burning tear slides down my cheek to fall
i only let this get the best of me
that's all it is, life
It's empty inside and out
i need some one to show me what it's about
to correct me when im wrong
hold me tight hold me long
hold me when im scared
everything is feared
i dont have anything worth while
So tell me why
>>why why why<<
why is it like this
I stand at the top over looking it all
a burning tear slides down my cheek to fall
i only let this get the best of me
that's all it is
i only let this get the best of me
that's all it is..life