Stygiophobia

I know you're not afraid
I saw this all close in around you
I've played this out in my mind so many times
It's too far gone, it's all over
And we both know that this is the way that it's meant to be
In your chest can you feel your own heartbeat racing?
And I know you've seen this many times before
If this is the end then I know that you're breathing
I know that you're alive
I watched you trembling
I heard you calling out for me
I watched you screaming in vain
And again this time I know that you're breathing
I know that you're alive but can you hold your head up now,
When this is the way that it's meant to be?
You're closing your eyes just to feel your heart inside your chest
You're closing your eyes just to stay alive
So many times I've held it together
So many times I've tried for you