Still waiting for the punchline

I want to find the water
that will wash the whole damned slate clean
break down
break up
we sleep in what we create
Right now - i'm living so much hate
right here - my sins have all been paid
to you
your friends
and for your sake
i feel dirty and
so depraved
My knees have bled
to hold you here
but now i've lost the taste
for lies force fed as time well spent
Right now - i'm living so much hate
right here - my sins have all been paid
to you
your friends
and for your sake
i feel dirty and
so depraved
And if another angel
says just grin and bear it
i might be forced
to smash it's head
against a wall
and never sin again
And if another angel
says just grin and bear it
i might be forced
to smash it's fuc*** head
against a wall
and never sin again
against myself and trust in anyone
write me off for suffering
it's a joke
i give up