Smokerboy

Situation died, hopelessness arrived
was it just a game you played,
to see if you could manage
pushed me into something,
that i could not reach you
and i'm too scared to try
if only you could tell me,
that you couldn't stand me
then i would keep to my part of the world
but memories won't leave me and i really think you care
picked up the phone and tried to
hear you through the open line
but i forgot your number and
you never knew mine
looking for something to believe in,
but nothing really matter anymore but love
a distant happiness all gone in helplessness
have i lived it all
is there something more