Self pity

I'm always short on cash and my mind is in the trash.
i can't find a way to get my head out of my ass.
i'm gettin' skinny as a bone
'cause i'm always stuck at home.
i'm living my life all fuc*** up and alone.
so once again,
alone in my room,
my only apparent future is my unhappy doom.
so i just whine all the fuc*** time.
i'm hooked bad on caffeine,
unless i get it i'm mean.
i can't remember last when i was chipper and clean.
i'm going insane, all i do is complain.
the only traits i show are depression and disdain.
the girl i love is going away,
there is no way that she'll stay.
i don't know how i'm gonna live my life this way.
don't want to have to try,
i'll just sit around and cry.
maybe, if i get lucky,
i'll just fuckin' die.