Self esteem

I wrote her off for the tenth time today
and practiced all the things i would say
but she came over
i lost my nerve
i took her back and made her dessert
Now i know i'm being used
that's ok because i like the abuse
i know she's playing with me
that's okay cause i've got no self-esteem
We make plans to go out at night
i wait till 2 then i turn out the light
all this rejection's got me so low
if she keeps it up i just might tell her so
When she's saying that she wants only me
then i wonder why she sleeps with my friends
when she's saying that i'm like a disease
then i wonder how much more i can spend
well i guess i should stick up for myself
but i really think it's better this way
the more you suffer
the more it shows you really care, right?
Now i'll relate this a little bit
that happens more than i'd like to admit
late at night she knocks on my door
drunk again and looking to score
now i know i should say no
but that's kind of hard when she's ready to go
i may be dumb
but i'm not a dweeb
i'm just a sucker with no self-esteem