Self-esteem (complete lyrics)

I wrote her off for the tenth time today
And practiced all the things i would say
But she came over
I lost my nerve
I took her back and made her dessert

Now i know i'm being used
That's ok because i like the abuse
I know she's playing with me
That's okay cause i've got no self-esteem

We make plans to go out at night
I wait till 2 then i turn out the light
All this rejection's got me so low
If she keeps it up i just might tell her so

When she's saying that she wants only me
Then i wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying that i'm like a disease
Then i wonder how much more i can spend
Well i guess i should stick up for myself
But i really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care, right?

Now i'll relate this a little bit
That happens more than i'd like to admit
Late at night she knocks on my door
Drunk again and looking to score
Now i know i should say no
But that's kind of hard when she's ready to go
I may be dumb
But i'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self-esteem