Retrograde

So close to taking back control of my life, now rotting me away
but its ok, just one more day of being, less then something
chase better days, the memories remain but feelings gone
All i can see in sight, nothing but black skies,
when i close my eyes everythings alright
Look away (don't see me), craw through life,
still pleading peace of mine, taking time to breathe
gain composure still stomach knots, taste the bile and shake
im dead inside
Slowly crumble
All burns have turned into blisters
the tears have rusted in my eyes-goodbye
No foreword progress im fading fast
ive come too far to start off again-goodbye
The pain just grows and grows with time
All i feel now cold thoughts unwind
but someday ill be alright