Request to rest

Strange thoughts blazing through my head
a nether darkness is where i've been led
the world has nothing to offer me
sometimes i think i wasn't meant to be
Is it attention? is it love i want?
or is it the end pleading in my heart?
my will is weakened by my disbelief
death could be my only hope for relief
There's no other way for me to turn
confussion and sorrow is all i've earned
my life has been a total waste of time
a slice of the razor and i'll be fine
Crying out pleading out
heard is no sound
life to choose win to lose
straight to the burial mound
Request to rest to end my sorrow
request to rest no tomorrow
In pain
i dwell
my life
is hell
Hatred
now my eyes only see red
all the pain that i've been fed
why can't anybody care
for you and me nothing is clear
why am i here? who'll dry my tear?
No!
i got no right to take my life
no other answer but to fight
will not give in
someday i'll win,
because we must fail to get it right
We don't choose to be born
much less when to die
we're not to decide
it's just one life to live
don't throw it away
love will find it's way