Red and grey

I loose my doubtful self control
can't catch a breath anymore
you still keep on killing me
i scream aloud without a sound
one peaceful day could save my life
or should i cut off the last line
it feels like you pull off my spine
and why do i stumble all the time
why do i feel so fuc*** cold?
why don't i ever make you bored?
why do i need you all the time?
why do i hate you somehow?
i slip away and suffocate
my body burns, my soul dies
i need a calm, a dead silence
get your hands off of my life!!!
i turn away, you turn me back
you look inside my moist eyes
you crudle my blood, you bite my neck!
get your hands off of my life!!!
why do i feel so fuc*** cold?
why don't i ever make you bored?
why do i need you all the time?
why do i hate you somehow?