Recovery

Blacking in and out
In a strange flat in East London
Somebody I don't really know
Just gave me something
To help settle me down
And to stop me from always thinking about you
And you know your life is heading
In a questionable direction
When you're up for days with strangers
And you can't remember anything
Except the way you sounded
When you told me you didn't know
What I should do
It's a long road up
To recovery from here
A long way back to the light
A long road up
To recovery from here
A long way to making it right
And I've been waking in the morning
Just like every other day
And just like every boring blues song
I get swallowed by the pain
And so I fumble for your figure
In the darkness just to make it go away
But you're not lying there any longer
And I know that that's my fault
So I've been pounding on the floor
And I've been crawling up the walls
And I've been dipping in my darkness
For serotonin boosters
Cider and some kind of smelling salts
It's a long road up
To recovery from here
A long way back to the light
A long road up
To recovery from here
A long way to making it right
And on the first night we met you said
"Well darling, let's make a deal
If anybody ever asks us
Let's just tell them that we met in jail"
And that's the story that
I'm sticking to like a stony-faced accomplice
But tonight I need to hear some truth
If I'm ever getting through this
Yeah you once sent me a letter
That said "If you're lost at sea
Close your eyes and catch the tide my dear
And only think of me"
Well darling now I'm sinking and
I'm as lost as lost can be
And I was hoping you could drag me up
From down here towards my recovery
If you could just give me a sign
Just a subtle little glimmer
Some suggestion that you'd have me
If I could only make me better
Then I would stand a little stronger
As I walk a little taller, all the time
Because I know you are a cynic
But I think I can convince you
Yeah, because broken people can get better
If they really want to
Or at least that's what I have to tell myself
If I am hoping to survive
It's a long road up
To recovery from here
A long way back to the light
A long road up
To recovery from here
A long way to making it right
So darling, sweet lover
Won't you help me to recover?
Darling, sweet lover
Won't you help me to recover?
Darling, sweet lover
One day this will all be over