Perfect fit

What was it i was thinking,
or was i even thinking at all?
when i think of what i thought back then,
then i'm ashamed; and i'm appalled that i gave up all i was so easily.
living your life is not for me.
I won't be sedated, i won't be sedated!
give me a little taste and i know i won't want more.
i won't be sedated, stability is overrated.
give me the disorder i adore.
I can't be a part,
be a part,
i can't be a part.
i can't be a part,
be a part of your modern world.
i've gotta be apart,
be apart,
i've gotta be apart.
i've gotta be apart.
i can't grasp the values that you hold.
What was it you were thinking,
or were you even thinking at all?
when i think of what you thought of me,
i take offense; and i'm appalled that you could discount all i love so easily.
living your life is not for me.