Part of me

Part of me won't go away.
every day reminded how much i hated it.
weighted against the consequences,
can't live without it so it's senseless.
want to cut it out of my soul
and just live with a gaping hole.
take control of my life
and wash out all the burned tastes.
i made the problems in the first place.
hang my head low 'cause its part of me.
you'll hardly see right next to the heart of me.
heard of me?
the moons soon scar.
new cuts cover where the old ones are
and now i'm sick of this.
i can't stand the sandpaper thoughts that grate on my sanity.
i'd rather not even be
than the man that's staring in the mirror through me.
(pre-chorus)
cut myself free
willingly stop just what's killing me. (4x)
(chorus)
i feel it everyday.
i feel i'm in my way.
i feel it swell up inside,
swell up inside.
swallowing me!
(freedom can be frightening if you've never felt it)
once it's been dealt,
when you feel like you've been touched by something angelic
and then melted down into a pool of peace.
cease to be,
the animal you used to be.
removed the broken parts you know were wrong,
and feel the calm when the problems all gone,
and then you start to see
a little piece of yourself that you can't let be.
memories of the last fight to free yourself
take you to the depths at the bottom of the well
and now you know that you can chose to lose the part in your heart
where your insides bruise.
you can live if you're willing to.
put a stop to just what's killing you.
(repeat pre-chorus 4x)
(chorus)
Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams violently, silently.
alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams politically.
this part of me won't go away, (alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams
desperately silently.)
a part of me won't go away. (alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams
desperately silently.)
Everywhere i look around i see how everything ought to be.
every time i see myself there's always something wrong with me.
everywhere i look around i see how everything ought to be.
and every time i see myself there's always something wrong with me.
(chorus 2x)