Pain

Stop!
My heart is sinking
You were once young
Running wild and reckless
Felt I had a point to prove to these bitches
That didn't like me, hate, no reason
Stop!
I'm not who you think I am
Seems I've been hurting all my life, but I grew, overcame Changes in my life, no voice, no decision, just pain
Always crying
I met you with dark clouds over my head
Made it hard to see my light
Innocence gone
Looking for love in all the wrong places
When I met you
Wounds from before still sore
In search for acceptance to have some friends
Far away from home, looking to be liked, looking to be cool
My youth, I cried, I found happiness before I moved here
Always trying to move back home
I was young
Trying to remember when I was happy
Truth is, I'm happy, but why do I feel so empty
Happy, happy, happy
was back at home
And I never made friends in high school
Got family and friends back home
Don't need a friend, learned family is enough

I didn't ask to come here
It was 'pack and move' one day when I woke up
Friends and family shed their tears
but I cried oceans, young and broken hearted, sore
Fourteen and out of place
Ugly and full of scars, old and new
Smiled some and cried, soaked my pillowcase

I bloomed and scars wide open, cut deep, still beautiful
Beautiful but I felt pain
I tried putting the pieces together, but it broke again
I met you with a broken heart
Not from love but from life
Scattered and bruised
I'll always have these ugly scars
Couldn't see beauty with a cloud over my head, all I seen was flaws
Instagram covered my insecurities, likes
You probably think I'm lying, but I didn't see beauty when I looked in a mirror
Never accepted, always teased, always bullied, always moving, always pained, always me, that's who you met

My life, MY LIFE
What about my life
I felt alone
So alone
So alone
And it's not because of you
Pain came, I was young
Life cut deep

Always smiling, Always sad
You left me too
Like all my "friends" from that raggedy ass highschool
If only you knew how many times I got left out
One day we're "friends", next day, gone
One day we're "friends", next day, gone
Hate me for no reason at all
Hated being used
Hated being abused
By "friends" from that damn high school

I waited for you
Took my mind off the pain
Then you went away too
I waited for you
You changed
I cried
more and more pain
Unwanted by you, I knew
Don't want to say I needed you, sad about life, you helped my get through
I cried
more and more pain
Unwanted by you, I knew
Numb
Broken
Cold
I pressed through
Met you in a storm, then you left, it continued to rain
I changed, tried being happy, but sadness turned into anger
Why couldn't I be happy, things going on at home
Angry, Angry, Angry
Always hurting
I didn't care about myself anymore, years of pain
Angry with my life
Not all about you, not all about you
Deserve to be happy, but got pain in a storm

I wanted to live in one place, grow with the people I knew, family, friends
Don't really know how it feels to be around your day one crew
Having fun, laughing, a shoulder to cry on too
I pushed you away, you left
I was hurting, the truth
I didn't know what else to do
And if I hurt you, I never meant to
Sorry