Out of focus

I knew what i wanted and i was fixed on it i was sure of it, i could've been wrong it seems like it's never quite like i thought it'd be the reality, am i where i belong? it's not like they said it feels like most everything's out of focus in my mind i'm trying to make some sense out of what i left behind the difference in who i am and the one want to be it seemed so much easier when there was something to believe a different perspective now and the world i see is in front of me, and everything's wrong the grass was so much greener when it was next to me now it's under me, am i where i belong? the world, it only seems to change from where you look much different than the pictures that they took it's nothing like they said it would be