Never changing (ft. luma)

I’ve waited for too long but now it seems I’m finally ready to see
Who’s right in the end cause you’re never changing
Who you are
What you’ve done
I feel like I’m losing the side of me that I had fought so long
too keep

All these memories
are aching
I’ve been drowning myself in the weight of the past
thought the truth
would’ve killed me
but I figured out
I’m not the one who changed
I’m not the one to blame
tried to forgive
and tried to forget
It’s too late to make it right

You’ll never know how all the hate has caved
a hole on me
without my heart
I’m just the kid
you took his eyes to see
tried to survive
but I was too weak
I’ve always tried to understand
Why you’re so fucking dead on the inside
dead on the inside

All the times that
I’ve been running
from the truth
I kept ignoring why
you called me up
heard a party in the background
had to hang the call up
cause I had to put my foot down
Who do you take me for?
I guess you thought I was a fucking clown looking into moms eyes & heart
you’ve broken our family apart
now you want to come back but guess what
my world is black
can’t you see
that you’ve broken me
and you can’t ever
fucking come back
needed someone to look up to
but no one was there you left me and my momma alone
you piece of shit I’ll never forget
I never had place to call home

I was lost in your lack of affection so wrapped in words with no meaning at all
still tried too look for the answers
but all I found was the reason to let all this go

All these memories
are aching
I’ve been drowning myself in the weight of the past
thought the truth
would’ve killed me
but I figured out
I’m not the one who changed
I’m not the one to blame
tried to forgive
and tried to forget
It’s too late to make it right

Tear me to pieces and pull me apart
choke on the words of a love from a far found an escape
but I was too late
my vices take me
to a better
place

I feel how the emptiness swallow’s us
sometimes
you just can’t let go