My ignorance

Last night as I slept I saw my life slip away.
Then you were next to me.
I couldn't see Your face but I knew that it was You.
Giving me a second chance.
I'll never really understand why I cannot comprehend
Your love and grace.
Why do I take pride in what I can't control.
How can I claim what isn't really mine?

What's the point of my ignorance?
The music that I see.
The colors in the air
The breath in my lungs tonight.

Why do I fight with You sometimes?
So today I walk down this road again.
I understand now, some of what You said.
Sometimes I lack the strength I need.
But you come through, every time I fail,
You're there to pick me up, when I need it the most.
When I've fallen hard You're there no questions asked.
You lift me up when I am down.
Please open my eyes.
Please help me understand.