My fall

So i travel on this road
of emptiness another day
as i hold these dust cloud dreams
an instant for they're blown away
could it be all this life's for is suffering?
'cause the sea is deep and i'm drowning
in all the tragedies
So i bleed maybe once or twice
to rid the seeds from my veins
the seeds that harvest the pain,
all the pain of my darkest days
and i've waited long enough
for these things to change
and i'll have no regrets before i take the blade
As i lay down for the last time
and leave all emotions behind
thinking not of the ones i'm leaving
just the hurt and the pain inside
So the wait is over, letting go tonight
the end of life is calling,
echoing my fall from grace
but i fear what lies ahead
as my heart stops beating
the chance of life after death.