Medicated to the one i love

I just cant figure myself out
or what's surrounding me
or what i surround myself with
a 2 ton fist is pushing me to the streets again
looking for relief in my restricted state
i wake from dreams of high before i rush by a crush i have on you
you're a lover most true
i'm falling off again
you'll always be my friend
she never lies but she eats me alive
elastic mind that always bends for my drug of choice
i think i hear her voice
it's like pixies and angels and cocteau twins so beautifully sung
but it's a noose she's hung