Love to hate, hate to me

Read the tale of my desire
a book of hate
1000 volts for every smile you gave me
as your eyes close
i'll brine, as before, the sight of true unhappiness
whisper i care
then gracious enough i let you go
remember me for the times i ruined you
not i made you smile
take this blade to my wrist
help me end what makes you ugly
swimming in the pools of my mind
you come to me at night
leave me black and save yourself
the story prolongs
with each word my stomach starts to turn
i've swallowed nails
so i can never say your name
now words are heard through my eyes
can you see the fire that burns from my heart
this song is for you
so perfect
its my fault i can't sleep 'cause you're on my mind
i have made an attempt to have you
tonigt i will sleep with the gun in my mouth
good night my love