Losing patience

I was looking forward to this day for so long
I had it all planned out
I was hoping it'd all work out
I was losing patience
you know it's never been my best trait
counting minutes, hours, counting days

then it dawned on me
unpredictabilty
I told myself everything's just fine
you worry too much, it's gonna eat you alive

I was looking forward to this day for so long
I had it all planned out
I was hoping it'd all work out
will it all work out

now I feel exposed
like a black light on the wall in a darkened room
all the dirt appears
you can see my fears
I don't want to let my guard down

you know I never had the feeling
that you would prey on my insecurities
you know I never had the feeling
that you would prey on these insecurities I have

why is this wait taking so long
counting minutes, hours, counting days
I'm losing patience

don't think this means I'm walking away
I won't let fear get the best of me
now it's up to me
I wouldn't change a thing
(DON'T THINK THIS MEANS I'M WALKING AWAY)