Lament

Many fuc*** disappointments I experienced in my worthless life.
Only the dominion of loneliness is inhabiting me, like a curse.
So many days without a smile, just distorted grimaces around me.
Damned to drag myself on through a desert full of desparation.

Can somebody please tell me why this is happening to me?!!
Please tell me my name! I did forget it forever.
Alone and deprived of all my value in this world.
Slowly I’m turning my head towards death’s door.

Suffering from many sores life has slashed into my heart.
Beloved friends died for fuc*** nothing.
Deep wounds I'm licking but they won't heal.
Damned to scrape a living of sadness and senselessness.

Can somebody please tell me why this is happening to me?!!
Please tell me my name! I did forget it forever.
Alone and deprived of all my value in this world.
Slowly I’m turning my head towards death’s door.

My soul is black without a candle illuminating the holes in it.
Darkness fills my lamed extremities.
My heart is bleeding from within, fuc*** blood!
I'm shedding bloody tears from my pale cold eyes.

My heart is bleeding from within, fuc*** blood!
I'm shedding bloody tears from my pale cold eyes.

Can somebody please tell me why this is happening to me?!!
Please tell me my name! I did forget it forever.
Alone and deprived of all my value in this world.
Slowly I’m turning my head towards death’s door.

I wanted to taste the beauty of love and life.
But these symbols are vanishing and rotting before me.
I’m a failure and will approach the landscape of no hope.
No one has ever cared or even recognized my departure.

I’m a failure and will approach the landscape of no hope.
No one has ever cared or even recognized my departure.