King of loneliness

I am searching for the missing piece that makes me whole
The hate I feel for what I have become allows me no control
Truth has all but vanished from all I say and do
If wishes did come true
I'd wish for the purity I once knew

I'm past the point of no return
I'm past the point of caring
I have screamed as loud as I can scream
No one ever listens

I am king of loneliness
I can't give this crown away
From never wanting anything
I got too much of nothing

As a boy I did believe if I closed my eyes I would disappear
But I would always open them for fear it would be true
Too much time spent inside and this
Childhood logic is realized
Now look I have disappeared
I closed my eyes too long