Kill myself

I'm gonna clean the house
I'm gonna fix the fence
With my final hours
I'm gonna tie up these loose ends
I won't leave a note for anyone to find
Tomorrow they'll know what I've done here tonight

The drastic steps I've taken
Are just an act of desperation
I knew no one would miss me, so what the hell?
I fought, and lied, I drank too much
Hurt everyone I've ever touched
And just how much I've hurt you, it's hard to tell
This is not some cry for help
It's goodbye, I wish you well
Because I love you I'm gonna kill myself

Now who is that in my easy chair?
Now wait a minute, that's the old me sitting there
And I thank God, the devil in me died
'Cause I stand before you now a man changed and alive The drastic steps I've taken
Are just an act of desperation
I knew no one would miss me, so what the hell?
I fought, and lied, I drank too much
Hurt everyone I've ever touched
And just how much I've hurt you, it's hard to tell
This is not some cry for help
It's goodbye, I wish you well
Because I love you I had to kill myself.

I'm gonna clean the house
I'm gonna fix that fence
In my final hours, I'm gonna tie up these loose ends