Johnny moribund

I had a dream
of rebirthing and growing as a team
but i've been shown
it's easier to pack your things and go
because i know i'm pitiful
like i know you're beautiful
But you'd thank me for my presence
you're welcome
i wish i'd held you closer and then some
maybe then i needn't regret
that joy unmixed with sorrow is suspect
I said i'm sorry, you needn't worry
i'm sick of playing johnny moribund
each day i wake to my impeccable mistake
and wonder why i pulled the plug
See the water spiral out
shed my suit and wring it out
ride the spiral to the flow
shed my skin and let it go
but what i want is all i had
'cause that's my pattern and always has been
and what i need is not a lot
just to be glad of what i've got
a simple trick if you can get it right
and i'm still practicing...
A wiser man would fight back, return fire
but i put my tired brain out for the night
i wake up in the daylight with sore eyes
startled by your heartbeat
well, goodbye, love...
You went on fishing, i came in reeling
headbutting concrete just to make a dent
it's so ironic that now you've caught it
you hurl it back 'cause it don't measure up
i said i'm sorry, you needn't worry
i'm sick of playing johnny moribund
close your fragile petals to the rain
god knows i'm guilty of the same
two lilies rooted in a stained bathtub
each day i wake to my impeccable mistake
and wonder why i pulled the plug.