In love with all my lovers

Even though I was here in August I will never you well again
Time is priceless and being wasted and taken for granted, I should've known
Someone told me to be strong, but look at me, how can I be
Of any use to anyone? I am silent and scared and in the way
I needed you to tell me what to do but this time you were not in charge
The right thing lies within your eyes, so maybe I'll start tomorrow...
I don't want to forget you
But it's painful to remember
You told me that you want to die
But that you didn't know how
I saw you in so much pain, I had no idea how to relieve it
You were strong and I was wrong, it's so hard to see you fall
Every moment that I'm not with you is a torture more than I can bear
Every morning I wake to miss you and every night despair
I told you I would let you go
I want you to come back to me
I didn't think it would end like this
I never thought it would be you
I know it it's not my fault
I know that it's not yours either
I can't eat and I can't sleepp
No one comes over anymore...
Throwing up all day and night, I am giving up on everything
If they only knew what I've been through
they would know that it broke my heart