I am a soldier

My mouth is a jail cell
The secrets peek between the gaps in my teeth
And even though they're dying, yeah
Pray for sunlight,
They'll pray for sunlight

Wish my words came out less frantic
And more romantic
But these bathroom walls
And your callused hands make me scream for sunlight
Scream for sunlight

When I say I'll be cavalier
And when you undress me I'll pretend not to care
Because I am a soldier
Yeah, I am a soldier
And I'll stare tight lips into space
So while your greedy hands take what they can get
All they get is me

And I swear (I swear)
I swear (I'll be) so cavalier
And I swear (I swear)
I swear (I'll be) so cavalier when you're here

I know that every single talk show will tell me I should let it out, let it out
Their make up makes it seem so made up, I watched them all let it out, let it out
But there's no microphones inside these aching b-b-bones
I said that there's no microphones inside these aching b-b-bones

And I swear (I swear)
I swear (I'll stay) so cavalier
And I swear (I swear)
I swear (I'll be) so cavalier when you're here

And I'm addressing it now
Fight this war with my mouth
Letting it out, I'm letting it out, oh
And I'm addressing it here
Fight this war with my tears
Letting it out, I'm letting it out, oh
I've been addressing it wrong
I'll fight this war with my songs
I'm letting it out, I'm screaming it out

I was a soldier, soldier, soldier
I thought I was a soldier, soldier, soldier