How will i laugh tomorrow (heavy emotion version)

Here i sit and watch my world come crumbling down
i cry for help but no one's around
silently screaming i bang my head against the wall
it seems like no one cares at all
always an emotion, but how can i explain
how can i explain
kind of like the scent of a rose
with words i can't explain
the same with my pain
caught up in emotion-goes over my head
goes over my head
sometimes i got to think to myself is this life or death
am i living or am i dead
the clock keeps ticking but nothing else seems to change
problems never solved, just rearranged
and when i think about all the times that i've had
so few good-so many bad
i search for personality and i look for things i can not see
Love and peace flash through my mind
pain and hate are all i find
find no hope in nothing new
never had a dream come true
lies and hate and agony
thru my eyes that's all i see
if i'm gonna cry
will you wipe away my tears?
if i'm gonna die
lord please take away my fear
before i drown in sorrow
i just wanna say,
how will i laugh tommorow
if i can't even smile today
today today--when i can't even smile today
today today--when i can't even smile today
how will i laugh tommorow--when i can't even smile today
how will i laugh tommorow--when i can't even smile today
thisnk somethin's funny?
why don'cha laugh at this..
so when i look outside my room,
i see the world but not the reasons,
what it's done to me is not fair.
you call it pain i call it treason.
but i know not what to do.
give me a sign i'll take whatever,
but if you want me here i am.
ain't gonna die forever.
and i try to hold ya,
but you just turned away.
and i tried to tell ya.
but not a word i say..
i could'a asked a lot less
but you just covered your ears.
i gave you all the signs,
but you ignored my tears.
so if you want me here i am.
i sit and wait it's your decision.
but my body fights my mind.
i'm headed straight for a collision,
so am i getting in?
or am i still lookin' in all the wrong places?
but the only thing that seems to change,
are the looks on faces.
and i tried to hold ya
and i tried to tell ya..
and i cried a lot man,
i cried and i cried i cried cried cried