Halfway back

So i thought i would write
to see how you have been
to fill you in on my day
and how i spend the time now
 
you remember that book you sent
well, i really should have known
that you might grow as i've grown
together yet alone
 
i was working my weeks
meeting somebody else's goals
took a good look around
just a part of a melting whole
exit or pay toll
 
but i don't want this
i don't need this
i don't understand at all
but i'm halfway back to feelin good
 
i remember the way
the choices came to me
and every day came naturally
and summers came in june
 
but the feelings that slowly turned
well i really can't recall
just when i fell did you fall
or find love after all?
 
crazy now as it seems
i go swimming on saturdays
past the young urban dreams
that the businesses preach today
have started me to say
 
that i don't want this
i don't need this
i don't understand at all
i don't take time
i don't make time
i don't answer every call
and i don't feel right
i don't sleep tight
i don't love it like i should
but i'm halfway back to feelin good
 
lately i love to drive
into the countryside
the many ways that i've tried
to get things off my mind
 
but there's nothing by chance, indeed
and you need not wish me well
just don't tell and i won't tell
or sound the broken bell
 
on the last time i left
i locked doors and forgot the lines
now i'm fading the blues
drawing circles on classifieds
i'm twentysome and doing just fine
 
but i don't want this
i don't need this
i don't understand at all
i don't take time
i don't make time
i don't answer every call
and i don't feel right
i don't sleep tight
i don't love it like i should
am i halfway gone?
you know i don't feel right
i don't sleep tight
i really don't love it like i should
but i'm halfway back to feelin good