Going through changes storm chasing

I'm going through changes
I'm going through changes

Lately I really, feel like I'm rolling for Delph like Philly
I feel like I'm losing control of myself, I sincerely
I apologize if all that I sound like is I'm complaining
But life keeps on complicating, and
I'm debating on leaving this world this evening
Even my girls can see I'm grieving, I try and hide it
But I can't, why do I act like I'm all high and mighty
When inside, I'm dying, I am finally realizing I need help
I can't do it by myself, too weak, 2 weeks I've been having ups and downs
Going through peaks and valleys, dilly dallying
Around with the idea, of ending the shit right here
I'm hatin my reflection, I walk around the house trying to fight mirrors
I can't stand what I look like, yeah, I look fat, but what do I care?
I give a fuck, only thing I fear, is Hailie
I'm afraid if I close my eyes I might see her
Shit And I..
I'm going through changes
And I...
I'm going through changes

And breathing's overrated, storm chasing and it's getting later
I used to love her now I hate her, she's a brain raider
Falling in a crater, of lost memories
I'm so out of hand I don't even fuck with me
I'm goin' trippin', drunk and slippin', sleepin' and bitching
Switchin' prescriptions, bangin' a random whore and itchin'
I don't give a flyin' feces, I ain't one with the human species
Slappin' the nurse, tryin' to up my C-C's
I fall apart, take all my pain, turn it to art
Blowin' up a K-Mart and blame it all on Mozart
F*** I'm surprised I got a deal, every two hours I take a pill
That's where I'm at, it's all surreal
I got imaginary friends, an imaginary life
An imaginary wife and a real knife
Out of here by next weekend
Hung over on the dresser with my brain leakin' And I..
I'm going through changes
And I...
I'm going through changes

I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, napping at noon
Yeah dad's in a bad mood, he's always snapping at you
Marshall what happened that you, you can't stop with these pills
And you've fallen off with your skills, and your own fans are laughing at you
It become a problem you're too pussy to tackle, get up
Be a man, stand, a real man would've had this shit handled
Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed
They say Proof just flipped out, homie just whipped out and bust
Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that
He wouldn't fuckin' shoot at, no-body, he fights first
But dwelling on it only makes the night worse
Now I'm popping Vics, Percs and Methadone pills
"Yeah Em, tight verse, you killed it"
Fuc*** drug dealers hang around me like yes men
And they gonna do whatever I says when, I says it
It's in their best interest to protect their investment
And I just lost my fuckin' best friend, so fuck it, I guess then:

And I..
I'm going through changes
And I...Don't know what I'm going through
But I just keep on going through changes
I'm going through changes

I'm whacked out, on jack and blacked out
Trapped in a crackhour full of d-d-d-d-d-doubt
I got guilt to the hilt, I fight tears and fears
Been out for ten years, hit a big bump off the mirror
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Com here motherfucker, take your best shot
I'm suicidal, got a lot of demons to fight, I'll
Probably sit in a chair and put my mouth around a rifle
I feel abused the loser blues are my booze, I'm in the who's who's
Of dope fiends and floozies in the land ff beer cans and uzis
Beggers are never choosy
The morning sun is like a sledgehammer to the forehead
And I'm barely here look in the mirror everyday and slowly disappear
Been through a million and 67 emotions in my short career
Riddle by fear staggered down the street, fall off a pier
Awe, F*** IT!!

And I...
I'm going through changes
And I...
I'm going through changes

My friends can't understand this new me
That's understandable man, but think how bananas you'd be
You'd be an animal too
If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo
And everybody's looking at you, what you want me to do?
I'm starting to live like a recluse and the truth is
Fame starting to give me an excuse, to be at an all time low
I sit alone in my home theater, watching the same damn DVD
Of the first tour, the last tour, he was still alive
And it hurt sore, fast forward, sleeping pills'll make me feel alright
And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night
I just take a couple more, yeah you're motherfuckin right
I ain't slowing down for no one, I am almost homeward bound
Almost in a coma, yeah homie come on, dole em out
"(Daddy), don't you die on me, (Daddy), better hold your ground"
Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice
Yeah baby hold me down

And I..(Daddy)
I'm going through changes (Daddy)
And I...Don't know what I'm going through
But I just keep on going through changes
I'm going through changes

Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes, but somehow I'm pulling through
Swear when I come back I'mma be bulletproof
I'mma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few
Facts, cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth
Shit it just hit me that what if I would not have made it through
I think about the things I would never got to say to you
I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do
Hailie this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too
I still love your mother, that'll never change
Think about her every day, we just could never get it together
Hey, wish there was a better way, for me to say it
But I swear on everything, I'd do anything for her on any day
There are just too many things to explain
When it rains guess it pours, yes it does
Wish there wasn't any pain, but I can't pretend there ain't
I ain't placing any blame, I ain't pointing fingers
Heaven knows there never been a saint
I know it just feels like we just pissed away our history
And just today, I looked at your picture, almost hate to say
I miss you self consciously, wish it didn't end this way
But I just had to get away, don't know why
I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm

And I..
I'm going through changes
And I...Don't know what I'm going through
But I just keep on going through changes
I'm going through changes

My heartbeat is racin'
Even though I'm standin' still I can't stop storm chasin'
A soul that shell casin'
So close to overdose the light of day hurts my eyes
Wishin' my death could be a surprise
My life should be more than four walls and the floor
But that's all that is mine, God, give me a sign
Cause I'm tryin' and dyin' at the same time
I'm not hesitatin', I'm waitin'

And I run away
From the light of day
I am not okay
My soul's a misery

And I...
I'm going through changes
And I...
I'm going through changes

And I run away
From the day
And I am not okay
My soul's a misery