First time

So what's wrong with me, i can't sleep
pull these bedsheets over me and let me be
with broken hearts and black and blues
i' m shivering because i wondered what you'd think
if i didn't break and made a change for you
It feels like
the first time
that i am standing on my own,
and i'm not wasted tonight, not wasted tonight
It takes a part of me, can't you see?
i'm pushing through your tidal waves, so i can breathe
with no regrets, so bittersweet
i'm holding on because i waited for your call
if you care at all, i will wait for you
Tonight i throw myself into, this blanket of relief
where i can get release, but you can't understand
what's happening to me, and these songbirds in between
sing anthems out to you