Falling and failing

I told myself, you've got to shake this jealous thing
It's the last thing you need
I told myself, just drop this anti-trust act
It is so self-defeating... and not worth repeating
And I watched your whisper of a secret turn into a mountain of a lie
There was always someone waiting in the wings
We were something that I am not

I am falling, I am failing
Sometimes loss is more than gain
I am falling, I am failing
This kidding you is killing me

Don't hold it to coincidence that our paths don't cross anymore
I am drowning in an ocean of thoughts and I can't spill out a single word
These days the best I can do is a simple smile across crowded rooms
You always said you could never take him back
I didn't think that never could come so soon
I took you out on everyone

I am falling, I am failing
Sometimes loss outweighs gain
I am falling, I am failing
This kidding you is killing me