Existence is punishment

I gave my heart and soul to you my friend
you let me fall
if you could only see what's in my heart
you'd take my hand
i've lived this life as a man would do
why's it so hard to find the truth?
my faith is strong within myself
i bleed of pride
inside
i won't forgive
You can't take it back now
it's to hard to swallow
no words
no conviction
I've found the truth inside myself
but i am still doing time
opened my eyes to what is real
this world is hard
it's cold
it's agony