Escape from reality

The drugs are ruling. controlling. confusing
don't want to be myself anymore
can't escape from reality
I'll make my own decisions
without distorted visions
fighting for rebirth
in torture and toment driven
last time i'm not forgiven
imprisioned i blame myself
I am feeling what it has been doing to me
it is changing ican not find my ecstasy
addicted i suffer lost
broken i dry retch emotion
addiction it feeds on us (let it rule)
I'll deceive you and i will lead you
drag you down and force to feed you
money's no issue just what i do
an industry of fake illusion
Here's the reason a taste of freedom
an open mind to stained delusion
i know it's new to you but i am telling you
you're searching for a different life
You'll make your own decision
through distorted visions
fighting for rebirth
in torture and toment driven
last time you're not forgiven
imprisioned you'li blame yourself
Whats the meaning of what i'm needing
cannot escape this life i'm leading
i reach to others but they despise me
i'm pushed aside with no one to turn to
Now i'm empty i'm done with dealing
i live alone but have no healing
cut arms bleeding it's never ending
a pool of blood i'm descending
I'll make my own decisions
without distorted visions
fighting for rebirth
in torture and toment driven
last time i'm not forgiven
imprisioned i blame myself