Dredge this wound

I've been down, helpless, still.
i come here once again, feelings lost,
extinction of what used to be,
dwelling keeps me from standing on my own.
selfless dissection of emotion,
emotion i have left inside dredge this wound,
salt of tears, then i fade away,
slips away and fades raising eyes to see you,
anger is all i feel, missed your forgiveness,
just a witness of my own demise, searching these pieces,
they cut me, you laugh as i bleed, swallow contradiction,
just a victim of all i have inside this pain just deepens,
i can never let go, feel it numbing me, exist around you,
everything i know, ive held myself down to,
held myself down so that i will never fall,
all of this i feel i pour out for you, salvation,
in the release of all that i feel