Cursed

I pierced my eyelids my belly my toes
poke holes through my skin till blood began to flow
but i can't get away from myself
no i can't get away from myself
I smoked and drank and inhaled and swallowed
danced in a trance ritual with belladonna
escaped for a brief eternity but too soon
the pain came back again to awake me
So i did myself in but i came back again
and when i got back in i had to pay for my sins
and learn it all again yea learn it all again
and it was harder this time yes it was harder this time
it was harder this time
And i can't get away from myself
and i can't get away from myself
can't get away can't get away can't get away from myself
can't get away can't get away can't get away from myself
I sat inside an icecube held a dream up hostage
threatened and cursed and painted a violently beautiful seascape knelt and wept and yelled when i pulled my nails off loved and sexed and spat and spewed all my juices out of onto and mixed up with a kiss and it was this kiss that saved me from all pain there was a child and the butterfly carried all my wishes onto the windy breeze the sun the silky curtain
And i can't get away from myself